I wrote CARPE DIEM with the intent to be influential. I loved seeing people keep their car well maintained, like living in the moment forever. Because if you’re a car enthusiast like me, the ‘new car’ season doesn’t last long. There’s always something new to do with it! But in the moment, you can decide to keep that new car moment for a longer period – just keep your shit’ up. Objective change in life can be proactive and feel good, but when you have no choice, you end up apart of the process, or the system, of depreciation. Feature photo by Ross Sokolovski (unsplash)
Last updated October 8, 2018
You can create a moment of joy but without the awareness of discipline and meaning your journey will lack genuine ascendancy of self…


bigHow easy is it living a life where moments are created by you? You determine the change, or maybe it’s done for you, but you have nothing to worry about. You’re free to make the changes, but there is a limit – democracy and discipline of course. If I’m always putting my memories of life in a cluster, like back to back episodes without any breaks between the seasons then who’s my support cast? By the way, Wayward Pines on Fox with Jason Patric was dope! Much credit to Rochelle Okoye, I appreciated her role as well. But with everything around us evolving; technology, jobs and cars we can only envision what’s next. Yes, you can assume also. Many new aged things will take some jobs away, void the need for cars and many other daily essentials. But on the other hand we’ll still need more support roles for those evolving things. You have to appreciate those who naturally live outside the box. Yet they’re hard to read, or people call them outsiders always looking ‘in’. They say you can make this world whatever you want, so I’ve always thought a car was as dope as the owner maintained it, and more importantly how they look at it. It simply reflected their world.

It’s why I hate seeing Pontiac Grand Prix’s so trashed today. There are more, the list goes on; Oldsmobile Cutlass’s, Crown Victoria’s, Cadillac Deville’s, etc., and that won’t change anytime soon. People use and abuse cars, but of course they depreciate sooner than we’d want them to. And this is my first observation to why they are let go by their owners.

You can argue the cars mentioned above have been through a lot, they last longer than most vehicles. This is true, and then scrapers emerge.

As if my eyes were caught by an M4, extinct vehicles are just as interesting. I’ll come across one as a daily parked right beside me in such great condition and you would think I was breaking my neck looking at an M4. What about this vehicle moves the owner past its prime? It may be a couple decades old and yet it needed to be restored in order to catch my eye. But to the owners who kept a moment in that vehicle and time was not of the essence. Original, fresh and new all in one vehicle allowing time to happen at once.

It’s typically done well, but why? Maybe the owner simply never let it go – every week was restoration and meaning, maintaining it, ego driven perhaps, or it may have been that they wanted to avoid a monthly payment in the future. Not even a big brake job, water-pump replacement, transmission or gasket issue stopped them from giving up on the car.

Unless they bought it restored. But let’s go to the beginning.

mazda-2-photo-contest1There’s the initial stage of car ownership, whether it’s new [used] to you, or fresh off the lot, its stylin’ season right? It’s the time you most appreciate your car. It’ll cost you money in the long run, but you enjoy it anyways for the many moments to come. I’ve never bought a car brand new, and I don’t plan on it because I trust reviews. Meanwhile you get the urge to get out and drive your brand new car. If you’re young and irresponsible, like I was, you’ll probably volunteer to be the DDD.

The newer your car is, the more appreciative you are of your car and the longer this season of ownership may last. Some refer to this as the honeymoon stage, when you’re getting to know the cockpit of your vehicle. Not quite a secondhand relationship between you and your vehicle just yet but the everyday excitement of getting to know your car has commenced.

…make it last forever! – K. Sweat

To the folks who bought a car for the purposes of getting from point A to B, the grocery getters, yeah whatever you probably ain’t reading this..

Many drivers are over this stage rather soon if they don’t take care of the car. They get wander eyes. The occasional perusing through local ads, Craigslist, or at what could be theirs instead. If you’re me, your eye is often caught at the exaggerated displayed vehicles being sold on Mcloughlin BLVD in Portland, Oregon.

As the first leak occurs, timing belt faults, brakes, transmission maintenance…. Time for a new what..? Maybe I should consider that nicely holstered Chevrolet Tahoe at Ron Tonkin I passed by last week. Reality kicks in. The car is yours and it could be foreign which scares people.

For the enthusiast – we’ll work on getting it fixed immediately and do anything to maintain its good condition. This holds the value.

This is the point where most drivers start letting go; when the door handle goes you feel no need to put forth too much effort in fixing it because you know you need new brakes instead. Then goes the tires. The upholstery starts cracking, and it’s worse with leather seats. And that noise can wait as well, but you get the idea. This is the slippery slope of car issues.

If you haven’t traded it in by now you’re probably on the road driving it until the issue becomes urgent. That quarterly car wash is not fooling anyone.

My First Car: Grant High School – Senior Year 2004/05

September & October 2004, I looked on Craigslist & AutoTrader for weeks to find the ideal car for me, which was going to be a Honda Accord. I happened to come across a 1986 Honda Accord (my year) that was also a stick shift. I had no idea how to drive a stick shift. I contacted the seller and went to meet him in Southwest Portland, alone. I barely test drove it, because my google searching of how to drive a manual transmission was not sufficient for a beginner. I knew nothing about cars, this car especially. So, I bought it. My brother-in-law drove it home for me. My dad taught me how to drive it that night, he would continuously claim it was all about the timing with the clutch. I cleaned it every other day and it barely had brakes. We put Eddie Barnett Jr. in the trunk one day so we all could go to lunch together. 10 months later, the head gasket blew while I was driving back home from my ex-girlfriend’s house on the highway 26.



I was devastated, but I didn’t have the money for the repairs. Abandoned.

Before the overheating and mechanical issues, I owned it with pride. There were several things I did to revive the look, because my honeymoon stage with the 86’ Accord didn’t last long given its used condition. I did everything for that vehicle to keep me happy.

In retrospect, there were only 2 seasons with that car. The honeymoon stage – let’s get out to show you off. And a couple months later – what can I do to stay in love with you?

Maybe many of us, myself included, think about the actual turning points of seasons in our life – because often those times are taken for granted until it’s all said and done months or years later. By then you have a better perspective of it, in terms of the bigger picture of past relationships and moments in life. In the bigger picture you’re either the problem or a part of it.

Like a water droplet dripping into a pool of water.

Behind the scenes in technology, I think the evolution of things are pretty objective. You can see the turning point as it happens if you pay close attention. For example, when Apple rolls out the new iPhone 7, we immediately have a new type of technology, a new type of usability, a way of calling, texting, taking photos, sharing on social media, etc.

If you’re on the old phone, you are simply behind in the bigger picture of [technological] things, but that’s fine. Own it. Same with cars, are you still printing out MapQuest directions to your destinations? Own your way if it inspires you today!

That’s objective change, us humans often experience change that is rather subjective.

I do know, I’ve seen a lot and I have been to a lot of places around this world.

“We are more alike, than we are unalike.” – Maya Angelou

All over the world people are experiencing the same seasons of life without seizing them in the moment. Life goes fast the older we get. Time relevance. Aside from the tragic and unplanned transitions in life, it’s challenging to see where the turning point is.

Even if you could control those moments, would you make a turn? What if it’s in fact a turning point, and whether you are aware or not you must decide. Sometimes, we’re too busy in life to acknowledge any turning moments. The people of Wayward Pines unfortunately had no choice. They realized they were just apart of the waters that flow down stream.


How often is a burrito considered a mess, but gets devoured anyway!?


Born and raised in Portland, Oregon, Budd writes to encourage readers to explore the depths of their inner ocean, an unexplored self, because its fun once you get through the emotional part... “The world around us is our vehicle, what you'll read is how I digest it.” -Budd

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